Discouraged

I'm feeling discouraged.

About everything really.  But definitely about my weight loss.

I've bounced between 245-255 up and down for 3 months.  Yes, I know I've still lost 90+ pounds, but I still have so far to go.  I don't feel like I'm making bad food choices.  I know I haven't exercised as much as I should, but I started running again last week.  And still, I saw an EVEN HIGHER number this morning.  I was not at all happy with it.

I even spent several hours researching corrective bariatric surgery on Saturday.  I don't know what to do.

I think I'm going to go strict liquid protein diet for a few weeks and see how that goes to give me a "restart".  My fills just don't seem to give me the same "restriction" anymore.  I eat the amount of food I am supposed to eat, and I just don't feel "full" anymore.  I have to eat much more to not feel hunger, and that is discouraging.

My band hasn't slipped.  I've been religiously getting my fills.  I eat protein first.  I follow the basic rules.  WTF.

Comments

  1. UnknownOctober 28, 2013 at 7:25 AM

    Aww girl I am sorry you are discouraged. maybe a liquid phase for a wk or so will be a good jumpstart or the 5 day pouch rest plan.. Also I know you dont eat very much but have you calculated the alchol... When I was drinking wine heavily ( bottles NIGHTLY ..lol) My scales jumped up real fast.. this was prior to the band but still .. also know it effects hubbys gut too lol. let me know how it goes. I am always here for ya

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    1. HolleeOctober 28, 2013 at 7:36 AM

      Sadly I wish I could blame this week's gain on alcohol, but I was sober all weekend. Just one glass of wine on Friday night. :(

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    2. UnknownOctober 28, 2013 at 9:39 AM

      well that sucks! :(

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  2. RoseOctober 28, 2013 at 8:11 PM

    I'm cheering for you!!

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