Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Goodbye Mr Banker

I thought things with Mr Banker were going so well. Since surgery he'd been everything I needed him to be. He had been sweet and more attentive. He even mentioned marriage and having children briefly so I thought for sure it was a great sign of things to come.

But Monday morning all that hope came crashing down. It's a small world and apparently he's been also dating a fellow WLS girl I know of through Instagram. She posted a photo of them out of town Sunday. I spoke with both of them and got enough information to know that his recent effort really want much effort at all.

I can't even lie and say I'm okay. I'm not. I'm crushed. But life will go on.

Friday, October 24, 2014

5 Week Weigh-In and Diet Bet

Good morning!

Unfortunately I don't have happy weigh-in news this morning.

Today's weight was 244.6.  That's +1 pound since last week.  I'm not horribly surprised, I haven't worked as hard this week walking or being accountable for food, so that's what happens.

In happier news, I've joined a DietBet 10% challenge.  The goal is to lose 10% of my weight in 6 months.  There's nothing I hate worse than losing money, so this should be a good motivator!  Tomorrow I'm going back to Bootcamp for the first time in months for a free Saturday session, and I intend to re-join once I start my new job.

Oh yeah, about that...For those of you who don't follow me on IG.... I was offered an amazing opportunity at Duke University.  It was the kind of opportunity one doesn't turn down.  I wasn't at all on the job hunt, but I was recruited and I couldn't say no.  I've job hopped a lot over the last year, but this is one I intend to stick with for as long as possible.  It's the kind of offer that I don't believe can be topped. :)

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Fried Foods at the Fair

 Last weekend was rough.
Look at what I had to look at for two days straight:
Seriously?  A hamburger between TWO Krispy Kreme doughnuts?!
I volunteered to help my friend's shoe company at the state fair.  Every year they set up a booth to give people the opportunity to try on their lovely shoes.  I try to help when I can, so I volunteered my time Saturday and Sunday evenings.  Weeknights are just too difficult with work.
Here's a picture of Rebecca and I showing off our Fan Feet kitten heels:
Even though I stayed away from the friend foods (go me!)  I still somehow gained weight over the weekend.  I'm back to my normal, so I won't be too hard on myself.
Proud of myself for not having any frozen chocolate dipped cheesecake though.
It's my FAVE fair food :) 

Friday, October 17, 2014

Friday Weigh-In: 4 weeks Post-Op

Today's weight: 243.8

That's -1.4 pounds from last week.  I saw a lower number earlier in the week, but won't count it since I didn't see it on the official weigh in.

Everything is good.  As of today, I'm allowed to start exercising again.  I plan to do that tomorrow!

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Ten Things Thursday

1.  I was just thinking how thankful I am for the friendships I've made through my WLS blog and through WLS hashtags on IG.  Thank you for all the support and kindness you've shown me.  Some of you I will never meet in person, but know that you matter to me.

2.  I'm exhausted.  I took a week to work from home since I think I went back to work too early after surgery.  It was such an amazing help.  But I came back to work Tuesday and I am just not 100% yet.  I'm tired and cranky.

3.  I'm not a patient person.  I'm waiting for an answer on something big right now.  Something that would be life changing, and it's killing me! 

4.  I've been watching a lot of HGTV lately and I have the urge to remodel my kitchen.  It's a tiny kitchen but would still be expensive.  And I need to put a fence up for my pups.  I need to start a 'house fund' savings account.

5.  I bought the cutest blue jean dress the other day and I'm going to be Rosie the Riveter for Halloween.  I don't know where I'll be or who I'll be with, but at least I know what I'll be dressed as!

6.  I don't have one regret about having revision.  At least not on my end anyway.  I do wonder how things would be different if I had gotten the RNY approval, and kind of wish that had happened, but I can't change it.  I truly hate Blue Cross Blue Shield NC.  They're horrible and don't care about their customers.

7.  Have I mentioned I'm lactose intolerant since surgery?  Milk is not good to my tiny tummy.  It makes me dizzy, have a racy heart, and nauseated.  Sometimes that feeling eventually turns into a torn up tummy.  Sugar does the same thing.  So why the other night did I decide to have a few bites of ice cream with Mr. Banker?  I learned quick... ice cream is a No No!

8.  I love Mr. Banker.  Like head over heels, when I see him nothing else matters, I want to shout it from the rooftops type of love.  I hope one day he feels that for me.

9.  I am planning to go on a trolley pub tour tonight with a couple of friends.  I've wanted to do it for a long while, and when this opportunity came up I was excited.  But part of my post-op WLS diet is no alcohol for 3 months.  I broke it last time, and I'm really trying to be a more compliant patient this time.

10.  Tomorrow makes 4 weeks since surgery, so I'll be allowed to begin exercising again!  I'm excited for that, but at the same time, dreading it!  Especially as exhausted as I've been.  But I'll fit it into my schedule somehow.

Friday, October 10, 2014

Friday Check-In: Week 3 Post-Op

Last week's weight: 246.2
Today's weight: 245.2

Loss of 1 pound.  Slow and steady wins the race, I guess?

When I saw Dr. Y last week, he told me not to get discouraged by slow weight loss.  He said my body has already gone through the WLS 'shock factor' where people loose 30 pounds in the first month, so I shouldn't expect that.  He told me my journey will be very different, because I'm not the same as the typical newly sleeved patient.  He's right, but sometimes it is still tough to deal with watching the ladies sleeved around the same time as me shedding the pounds so quickly.

I told Dr. Y that even if I don't lose another pound, I think this was the right decision for me.  I have not had even ONE PB episode?  I still kind of fear it.  I had a group lunch at work earlier this week and I ate sooo slowly, afraid each bite would come back up.  BUT IT DIDN'T!  And it hasn't happened even once since surgery, that's such a relief.  I really spent a lot of time scared of food.  I know that sounds silly, but I threw up so often it was just something I expected to happen every time.

Dr. Y's response to my comment about 'even if I don't lose another pound' was that he is glad I'm happy with the decision to revise to fix my complications, but he doesn't believe I won't lose another pound.  He said I've been so successful already that he's sure I will get to where I want to be.  It was so nice to hear that from him.  Sometimes I feel like needing revision is a sign of failure, so it was nice to hear from the authority on such matters that I didn't fail.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Ricotta Bake Pizza Muffins

I made the most delicious dinner last night and it's quite healthy so I wanted to share with you all.

Each "muffin" is 80 calories and 8g of protein.

Mix 8 oz cottage OR ricotta cheese, 1 egg, 1/2 cup Parmesan cheese, and Italian seasoning to taste. Spray muffin pan. Fill cups with the cheese mixture, then top each with a teaspoon of pizza sauce and cover with 1/2 cup mozzarella cheese. Bake at 450 for 20-25 mins. You can add whatever toppings you want, and you can line the cups with prosciutto if you want to make a little crust. :) it's so heavenly and rich, especially if you love cheese like I do!

Friday, October 3, 2014

Two weeks post op

I wrote it last Friday on my weigh in, and I knew it was going to happen....but that doesn't mean it doesn't suck.  As soon as I started eating real food, the weight loss hit a wall.

Last week's weight: 247.2
Today's weight:  246.2

Loss of 1 pound.

I know, a loss is a loss, and I expected a stall, but I'm disappointed.

I see Dr. Yoo today and plan to ask him when I'm allowed to start really exercising again.  I'm dead tired, but I know I need to move more.  My cousins are having Yoga day on Sunday and I don't think I'm allowed to participate quite yet, but I'll ask.  I'm only 2 weeks out and I was originally told 4 weeks.  It doesn't hurt to ask though right?

I have a tendency to be stubborn and hard headed and over do it, if you can't tell.