Am I not pretty enough?
Am I too fat?
What am I doing wrong?
Is this karma for something I did when I was younger and less mature?
Am I not good enough? Am I TOO good?
I used to think if I lost weight, I would find the right guy. Don't get me wrong, I get plenty of male attention, and truth be told, I was never short on flirts even at my highest weight. The problem is the KIND of men I meet.
A married man.
A guy who beat me up.
Now one who could have everything with me, and can't commit.
I have on many occasions been told that I'm 'too good'. That I just give of myself freely and don't expect much in return, and so these people I allow into my life also don't expect that they have to give much.
I want someone who gives of me the way I give of myself. Someone kind and caring. Someone who will need to be with me after seeing how good I am. I deserve that.