Christmas Day

Merry Christmas blogger friends & family

Today, for Christmas, I am asking for wisdom to make the right decision, and strength to follow through with it.  Monday I experienced a 'make it or break it' moment in my life, and I honestly don't know what to do.  I know what I WANT the outcome to be, but I don't know if it's possible, or right.  If what I WANT will only cause further hurt later on.  I hope I come to the right conclusion, even if it may not be what I want.  Sorry to be a little Debbie Downer, but I'm struggling and I have no one to talk to.  I can't let my parents know I'm not okay, so I am walking around with a smile on my face and aching inside. 

The show must go on.

Last Thursday when I had my fill, my PA was surprised that I wanted a tighter fill.  She said most of her patients want to be loosened right before Christmas.  My response was "Christmas isn't about food, it is about love and family".  I hope that I can embrace the love and family part today, regardless of whatever else I'm going through.

Comments

  1. KathyDecember 26, 2013 at 6:15 AM

    I wish you the best, and the wisdom to make the right decision. I read your blog whenever you post, and I like reading your thoughts and your weight loss adventures. I struggle with weight issues too. Hope you have a Happy and blessed New Year.

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  2. RhondaDecember 27, 2013 at 9:05 PM

    Hope you got it figured out, hon. Happy holidays!

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  3. SheilaDecember 29, 2013 at 4:20 AM

    Hugs to you Hollee!

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