Monday, September 23, 2013

Monday Musings

Happy Monday Everyone!  I hope you all had a great weekend!  And although I'm a day late, Happy Fall :)

This is my college campus in fall.
Can you see why I love the changing seasons?

Yesterday I went for a 4 mile walk with a friend, and today my body can tell I haven't been doing much lately.  I need to get on that!  With the weather cooling off, I really have no excuses!

I spent the last day of summer at the beach with Banker.

Friday was a hard day for Banker.  After spending the evening with his Godsons, he came over to stay the night.  Twice in one week...

We woke up early Saturday morning to go to the beach.  The weather was supposed to be good Saturday, but it really wasn't.  It rained almost the entire drive and I was a little scared it would be rainy at the beach.  Luckily it was just overcast once we arrived.

Sitting on the beach, with a little liquid encouragement, we had some very deep conversations.  He loves his Godsons...the way he talks about them, I know he would be a great father one day.  He says they have changed his life.  He told me he wants to have a child in the next 2-3 years.  That really surprised me, because he can't really do that on his own...  Thanks to the alcohol, I also told him I got my feelings a little hurt by something dumb he did last week...I told him he made me feel like he wants a relationship with someone, just not with me.  He said that is absolutely not true.  He said "We have been spending a lot more time together for a reason, it isn't just to pass the time.  I like being around you."  So, that's as close as I got to the relationship conversation.

He got a citation for drinking on the beach.  I have been to this beach every summer for seven years, I had no clue drinking wasn't allowed.  So that kind of put a damper on things, but hopefully we will get that appealed.  Luckily that happened when we were pretty much ready to go anyway.

When we returned to my house, we were both exhausted.  I really wanted him to stay the night again, and I think he didn't want to drive home, but maybe we were both being a little shy?  I am definitely more shy about my feelings for him than he is, and I think if I'd asked him to stay Saturday night, he would've, but I didn't.  At some point, he mentioned my blog.  I talk about blogging sometimes to him, and he said he has thought about looking trying to google it.  He asked how I would feel about that.  I asked him not to, but at the end of the day, this is a public blog, so if he wants to I can't stop him.  I wondered if maybe he already has...

As he was packing his stuff to go, he looked at my dog and said "Wrangler, your mother hasn't kissed me all day."  I don't know why, but I thought this was very cute.  He is the only guy who has come around who makes an effort to make friends with my dog.  Wrangler is terrified of men, but he is definitely warming up to Banker.  Plus, it was a cute not-so-subtle way to let me know he wanted to kiss me...

He must like me too.


  1. Banker sounds like such a nice guy, I hope things work out with him. Your love life is so exciting, I love reading your posts :)

  2. he likes you...i can tell. its just men when they get out of their 20's--they tend to take things slower--they know that they are starting to look for a lifetime commitment--and not just a fling--and maybe he thinks you are the one--he just needs time to reconcicle to it. women mature way faster than men do--so even though you are younger--you are ready for the next step--and i think he is too--it's just taking time for him to figure it out. don't rush him, just let things develop as they fall. and don't rush into the ' i love you' stage. The ELB told me he loved me early in our dating--and i freaked out. it took me THREE MONTHS to say it back. so don't cause him to freak out--when things are more exclusive, then go with the love thing. good relationships take time, and this is just starting. if you want a lifetime with someone, there's no need to rush the beginning. :)

    1. No rushing...I'm pretty happy where it is right now. Just knowing he feels the same I do is enough.

      What you said is funny because very early in our "friendship", probably in May, we got on the topic of "The L Word". I told him I would never ever say it first. He also said he wasn't big on the word, even using it in sentences. But he said "just remember, someone has to say it first". He's right, someone will have to say it first, it wouldn't be me... And neither of us wants or is ready for that. I don't love him, yet, just very much "in like" with him. I love spending time with him, that's as close as I can get to that word right now lol.