Disclaimer: None of this is WLS related
So about a month ago, I was struggling with whether or not to try to move forward with Banker/Robocop. I thought I wanted Banker but he seemed to disappear while Robocop was treating me like I felt I deserved. So since the day I first saw Robocop, I didn't see Banker...until Friday. And I felt terribly GUILTY. Sunday when I saw Robocop, I could hardly even speak to him, because I felt that I was going to spill all my secrets and tell him I'd seen Banker Friday evening after work.
So knowing all that, maybe I was just looking for a way out. I'm not sure.
Last night, Robocop came over and he was playing on his brand new Kindle Fire. I noticed he'd downloaded the dating site app and I thought that was curious. He took a nap and I decided I'd look if there was no password. I know, I know....snooping isn't good. I don't want to be a snooper. But I did it anyway. Instead of going to the dating app, my fingers somehow navigated to his facebook. I was appalled at his private messages.
How could I feel guilty about seeing one person, and he was consistently talking about sleeping with other people??? Men!
When I confronted him, I didn't tell him how much I'd read, and he swore he hadn't slept with anyone else. His words got nasty because I'd been sooooo wrong to invade his privacy. Yes, I was wrong, but my wrong does not negate his. I apologized for looking through his private belongings, but he never had any apology for how hurt I was over the things I'd read.
I don't know if I was acting out of my own guilt or seeking a way out, but I definitely read more than I needed to know that he wasn't the one for me. I'm pretty hurt over it, but not surprised.
At least I still have Banker. I was honest with him about Robocop and he was happy with my honesty. I may be a lot of things, but a liar is not one of them. Had Robocop asked me, I would've told him too.