Saturday, November 9, 2013

The truth about Antidepressants

Ever heard "It will get worse before it gets better"??

Well, that's exactly what it feels like to take antidepressants.

When I took antidepressants for a 3-month period in 2011, the beginning was horrific.  My PCP accidentally prescribed a very high dose (150 mg) instead of the starting dose (37.5 mg).  She told me she was putting me on the starting dose so I pushed forward and made it through those two weeks of hell to the other side and never checked the bottle to make sure I had the right dose.  I can only describe what I felt like was a living zombie.  I went to work and could do nothing but stare at the screen, in the moments I could keep my eyes open.  I slept A LOT for two weeks.  But then I came out on the other side so much better.  I joke that it was the quick, difficult way, to find the effective dosage for me.

So Thursday when I got prescribed 37.5 mg of Effexor XR, I was sure to check the dose on the bottle.  It was, in fact, the right dose.  So I thought it would be easy breezy to start compared to that high dose.


I was wrong.

I feel pretty damn bad.  But I believe I need them enough that I'm going to push through this rough time until my body adjusts. 

Friday I woke up nauseous, never threw up, but I wanted to just to get rid of the feeling.  I went to work but had a hard time focusing, and eventually fell asleep on my desk.  At that point I decided it was just time to go home at 3:30!  I only work til 4 most days anyway because I go in early.  Got home and had a nap for a few hours before going out for Sara's birthday.  And wanted to be in my bed again by midnight, but luckily I survived until I crawled into bed at 3am.  I hope it doesn't take the full two weeks to adjust to this lower dosage.

I do see a light at the end of this dark tunnel at least.


  1. No Trouble Getting The Pill Through My Band Though!!! Thankful FOr That :)

  2. Hang in there. I have very limited experience with anti-depressants...just a brief period with Celexa about 13 years ago, but I do remember it making me feel pretty damn bad at first. I will never forget the body-shaking yawns. It was so weird. I've had friends who have taken Effexor though, and they have had positive experiences. Not to mention weight loss. :)

    1. I'm trying to hang in there, but it's rough. Though the last time I took it, I did lose 20-30 pounds. And it made me so much better...put me in the right place.