Thursday, November 21, 2013

Ten things Thursday

1. I got another fill this morning: 8.3 CC in my 10 CC band.  I was disappointed she only had me losing 3 pounds since I saw her 2 weeks ago, my scale said MUCH more, but I'll get over it.  It's a loss, hooray.

2.  Insurance sucks right now.  I don't want any political talk, but seriously, I'm so frustrated right now and don't know what to do!  My work insurance went up about $50 a month.  That isn't going to break me or anything...the problem is that the benefits associated with it went WAY DOWN.  The deductible doubled, cost to see a specialist doubled, maximum out of pocket doubled.  So yeah, I'm looking elsewhere for insurance.  I believe I found the plan I'm going to go with, just a little nervous about doing something different.

3.  I feel so inadequate at times.

4.  I have therapy today.  This should be great fun (sarcasm here) because I have some negative feelings right now about #3.

5.  I had really horrific dreams last night after drinking a whole bottle of wine and going to bed mad/frustrated.  The worst of the dreams was a dream about my mom.  I dreamed that I found out she had cancer and only had a few weeks to live.  I woke up crying so hard that I could not breathe, I think that is what woke me actually.

6.  I started trying to put up my downstairs Christmas tree last night.  I have a fake tree downstairs and a live one upstairs.  The fake tree I have belonged to my mom before she went back to a live tree, and is at least 10 years old.  So, yesterday, when I started putting it up, I found that 2 of the 9 branch sets do not light up any longer.  So frustrating!  I will spend this evening replacing bulbs on those branches in hopes that I can salvage this tree.  They're too expensive to replace!!

7.  I don't think I'm going to do the Christmas/Birthday surprise I was planning for Mr. Banker.  Last weekend a friend said to me "Hollee, you've got to stop being a wife to a man who doesn't even want you to be his girlfriend".  She was absolutely right, so I'm trying to take a step back, regardless of how fucking hard that is.

8.  I'm so happy it's finally basketball season!  I love UNC basketball.  Seriously, there's not much that makes me happier than seeing my team win.  This year we aren't looking good, but I am, win or lose, a Tarheel :)

9.  I'm not at all a fan of Thanksgiving.  I don't know why, I have just never liked it. But I'm so ready for the break from work that is accompanied with the holiday.

10. OMG I get frustrated so easily sometimes.  Microsoft word is the bane of my existence today...


  1. so glad she hooked you up with another fill :)

  2. yay on weight loss! you are moving in a positive direction!

    and your friend had a good comment about the banker. maybe it was a wake up call? but i'm just like you in so many ways so i would have done the same thing you were planning to do. i have done in the past.

  3. I feel you on that insurance thing. We actually got around any changes for this year some how. But next dec things will change. It sucks! And #7, ya know i never thought of it that way. She is right!