Hollee's Weight Loss Success Story ((in progress))

It's Friday.  I made it through my first week at the new job.  It's Labor Day weekend so I get an extra day off work. So why am I in a freaking funk? Well, there's a lot of little reasons that all just seem to add up to an emotional wreck right now.  I don't even want to talk about things on my blog I am so upset.  You know it's bad when I don't want to express myself here, because you all are such an outlet and good support system for me. So, please send me your positive vibes. I will end on some kind of positive note. Yesterday was the first football game of the season.  UNC got murdered.  But in the spirit of football, I came across an old picture from 2011: Then compared it to this photo from yesterday morning: Yeahhhh...at least that felt good....  I feel like I look half as wide. I'm going to have to take another photo on the field like that, because I do think it is such a cool photo.

Do you ever feel like you're re-inventing yourself every day that you make the right food choices?  Every day that you step on the scale?  Every work out?  Every time you log your food? This isn't a diet, this is a little part of what I've spent the last 18 months of my life doing.  It has been a life over-haul. I bought a home. I removed some toxic people from my life. I had surgery. I started eating healthier. I began exercising. And now I'm beginning my career again at a new company. Honestly, choosing to change jobs has probably been the hardest decision of this re-invention process.  Why?  I wasn't miserable at my old job.  I just needed more money/recognition.  I learned valuable skills and made lasting friendships there.  So the decision to leave was not an easy one.  I know that money isn't everything, but I've been really financially struggling for a while. So yesterday I began my new career at my new company. ...

My surgeon.  That's who. Has he lost his freaking mind? That is not something you should EVER tell someone who is trying to be healthier...it isn't all about the number of pounds I shed each week if my body is becoming stronger and healthier each week regardless of what the scale says. I had my first clinic visit since my 2 week post surgery check-up.  That is 10.5 months without talking to my surgeon.  I got there and the office was PACKED! I waited almost 2 hours before a resident came into my room.  She looked at my loss and said "So what's the problem?"  I told her I didn't have any problems, that Dr. Yoo requested the visit.  So she asked for a recap of my loss and when I told her my overall loss and loss over the last 4 weeks, she said she had no clue why Dr. Yoo requested I come in and I could leave.  I told her if I didn't see Dr. Yoo, not only was I going to be really freaking angry, but I was going to go ask for a refund of my $50 cop...

-0.8 since last week. Today is my last day at my current company....hello emotions.

This morning, I went to the UNC football coach's kickoff breakfast with my coworker.  She has an awesome company that does college heels (go to The Fan Feet website if you want to see if they make your school!) so she always has the opportunity to go to cool events for UNC athletics, and she invited me along. I got to the breakfast and I knew I wouldn't be able to eat much.  It was buffet style.  I picked up a small bowl of oatmeal and topped it with a little brown sugar and walnuts and I got a piece of veggie quiche.  I started with the Oatmeal and it didn't cause any discomfort, but I'd only gotten maybe 3 spoonfulls so I was still hungry after finishing.  I decided to try the quiche, very slowly.  During the time I was trying to eat, I practiced putting my fork down in order to make sure I didn't eat too fast.  I was approached 5 times by servers asking to take my plate.  I definitely wasn't done!  But I guess putting my fork down was t...

I'm a smitten kitten. Mr. Banker was sick all week last week.  He started feeling bad Monday after a trip to DC over the weekend, so we thought he was just hung over (STILL) from too much fun festivity.  By Wednesday he finally took himself to a doctor, where a rapid Strep test came back negative, but Thursday got a call that the culture was positive.  He finally started feeling better Friday after antibiotics, but I didn't want to risk getting Strep since I start my new job in just one week. Friday night he was so sweet.  We texted all night.  I had told him the significance of Friday's date earlier in the week, and he remembered and wanted to make sure I was okay.  He kept telling me he wished he could be there for me, he had planned to take me out for drinks or something to take my mind off of things, and he was sorry being sick messed it all up.  It was really sweet that he cared so much about making sure I was okay.  And I WAS surpri...

1. Weigh In: Today: 252.6 I swear I saw some high 240's earlier when I wasn't eating anything. That's still a loss of -0.8 since last week, so I wont fret. 2.  It started last week.  First, at my celebration Margarita night last week, I got on the topic of having children and I realized that financially, I'll be able to afford having children a lot earlier than I thought a couple of weeks ago.  Then on Saturday, I went kid consignment shopping with my friend Kira.  Looking at all the sweet baby furniture and such got my mind going.  Sunday I babysat for the kids I used to nanny for...how did that 3 week old baby turn into a little girl that is turning 5 in a couple of months?  Then yesterday, I was watching videos of my nephew from when he was a baby.  And it happened... seems I've caught a case of baby fever. 3.  I'm excited about my new job, but I do worry about my mental stability due to the location.  Remember my post about Ma...

Yesterday morning, when I weighed myself, my weight was a bit better, but then I had to celebrate last night. Still at 91.2 pounds lost. -------------------------------------------------------------------- Yesterday was an emotional day.   Excitement for new opportunities. Sadness for leaving comfort/personal relationships I've created. And then celebrating at night. With a whole pitcher of Margaritas TO MYSELF. Last day of current job will be 22August and I will start the new position on 26August!

Yesterday, I had my final interview for a new job!  You all are surprised right (I hope you're reading my sarcasm)?! I know, I know.  I'm no good with secrets.  I was just so excited but I didn't want to jinx myself! Well, I got the verbal offer yesterday within a few hours of the end of the interview.  I'm now just waiting on the official written offer!  It's exciting and scary at the same time. It's the same industry, but will be a title and salary jump.  You can just call me Hollee S****, Data Manager ;)

I'm feeling nothing but positive vibes about my important morning...  Keep those fingers crossed until I have an update! Here is the professional attire outfit I chose. I felt really confident this morning :)

I had a really weird/interesting weekend... I wanted to take a break from my Monday work and Meetings to write a little. Remember the guy who called me a fat bitch at the beach a few weeks ago?  He died in a motorcycle accident Saturday.  It doesn't change how I feel about him or how he treated me, but I feel a weird sort of way about it.  I guess that our only interaction was so negative.  It is sad for his family.  His wife is a stay-at-home mother with 5 children, so I pray for her that she will find a way to make things work. I had a busy weekend.  I spent most of the weekend looking for a professional outfit for something *very important* tomorrow.  I looked everywhere.  You know, being this in-between size is kind of frustrating.  I'm a 14/16 and I never know where to shop.  Malls are too big and I get overwhelmed.  I ended up buying something at Lane Bryant, even though I'd really love to be able to stop shopping there be...

Here I am again, dealing with the same old stuff after an adjustment. I got 0.9 CC's yesterday. I had a EAS protein shake (170 cals) and a Starbucks Chocolate Vianno Whey Shake (250 cals). Got off work, went home and had 2 greek yogurts. Was wondering if I had restriction. By dinner, I was ready to cheat. It hadn't been 24 hours since my fill, but it HAD been 24 hours since solid food. I had a bowl of wonton soup...mostly liquid, just 2 wontons in it. I did okay, no PBing yesterday. So this morning I woke up and took a big sip of chocolate milk. Hello, PB. Hello, 2 hours of Slime. WTF. So by lunch time I start eating my yogurt for lunch, sick. Go for soup with a coworker, sick. Get frozen yogurt with coworker, sick. WTF. I can't understand my band sometimes. Currently about to post this ad and go PB again, as I just had another bite of yogurt.

1.  I had a fill appointment this morning.  It's only been 3 weeks since my last appointment, but I was feeling hungry all the time.  Dr.  Yoo weighed me at 255.6 today.  That's up from Saturday morning...sigh.  I'm not too upset, I'll get back down.  According to him, my loss is 88.8 pounds since surgery.  Moving on. 2.  I've decided to give up alcohol for a while.  The reason is a combination of things.  Last week I think, I read that Lap Band Gal gave up alcohol during her entire losing phase.  That was the start to my inspired idea, but then I just drank way too much Friday and Saturday and decided I was done for a while. 3.  Mr. Banker isn't speaking to me right now.  I did something wrong--the thing is, I didn't know what I was doing was wrong, so I openly told him about it and he hasn't really spoken to me since (this was Sunday morning).  Saturday night in my drunken state, I texted everyone in m...