I'm feeling very frustrated, so I'm taking my 15 minute work break to get it all out, and hope that's the 'woosa' I need to get over it.
I had a great weekend... much better than I anticipated by any stretch of the imagination, so I thought that meant it was going to be a good week too. ha. I was wrong.
1. This week is the end of my Round 1 of DietBet. I have been doing pretty good, however the last 2 weeks of stress have impeded my progress. I decided to have a few 'no chew' days (liquid protein only) to jump start me to the finish line, but it doesn't seem to be working. I'm starting to think this round of the DietBet is just a wash and I won't win no matter what. I have been working out much harder in the last 2 weeks than I had since before my revision surgery so it kind of pisses me off that I'm not making more progress.
2. On the lack of progress note, I'm starting to feel really unhappy with my sleeve and anger with BCBSNC for screwing up my revision to RNY.
3. Yesterday morning Mr. Banker emailed me. Why does he have to be such a selfish son of a bitch? I told him I want to be left alone. He doesn't want me, so let me go. Please! Proud of myself for not emailing back, but it has completely detroyed an entire 24+ hours for me now.
Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer, I'm just really struggling with things right now.