Hollee's Weight Loss Success Story ((in progress))

Wow... it's been a year since I've written. I never updated you on my revision (2.0), and I'm only here because it's possible my info could be helpful to others so I thought I'd write a quick update to share. On 4/19/17, I was revised from vsg to rny. I'm finally the wls I should've had from the beginning.  The recovery was the worst. Partially though, because they did in fact not allow me any pain medication. But I made it. And surprise... the day I went back for my two week check up, I was pregnant. I had been trying for some time via donor sperm and this particular time I'd  been careless with counting days,  hadn't taken ovulation tests, but there I was... pregnant. Right after surgery. I hid my pregnancy for a while from the public, which is a huuuge reason i never updated the blog after surgery. I am now the lightest I've ever been... 161 (starting was 344.4). I'm healthy, with no further reflux.  And I'm just living life with...

Hi everyone... I've been dreading writing this blog.  But I've always wanted to be transparent, so I'm writing it.  I also don't want anyone to feel alone, and the few instances of my situation that I've read from other people give me such a sense of solidarity, that I want to give that to someone else. 5 years ago, my surgeon suggested I have gastric bypass instead of the lapband.  I was too scared and I said no. 2.5 years ago when it became clear that my band was failing, my surgeon suggested I revise to gastric bypass.  I said yes.  I learned that I needed to trust my surgeon, and so I got on board.  It was the day before surgery when my insurance said NO.  I was beyond frustrated and went forward with the sleeve even though my surgeon warned me that I may need further surgery if I had the sleeve due to already having GERD. So here we are now, and I'm revising- yet again. As soon as I was sleeved, the reflux got worse almost immediately. ...

I'm struggling. I got out of my gym contract but my former trainer's words really messed with me. I've been attending the new gym here and there but I don't think it's quite right for me. I don't feel comfortable with the child care there so I don't think I'll be going anymore. I need to find something but gyms with child care are difficult to find. I've contemplated running. A jogging stroller would only cost me about the same as a month's gym membership. I hate running, but I love the results. I always lose weight when I do HIIT cardio. I hate that I let words affect me to the point of losing my motivation. I need the exercise mentally, but I just can't find the physical drive to go right now. I hope I figure something out soon.

I'm an ESFJ (Myers-Brigs assessment). My weaknesses, if you're interested: Inflexible   Reluctant to Innovate or Improvise   Often Too Needy   Too Selfless This basically explains everything that is wrong with me. And explains why I'm so averse to change.  I HATE change.  And it feels as if the only constant in my life right now is change. First, the end of my relationship with Mr. Banker. Losing my church (also a result of Mr. Banker). Now losing my gym/trainer. The good and bad news is that the owner of the gym let me out of my contract.  That's good because I really don't think I could've worked out with old trainer again after last week.  The bad news is that prior to Thursday, I really did like him as a trainer.  I'm also losing the support of all of the women at the gym.   That's hard but I think this is the best case scenario. My old trainer from 3 years ago opened her own gym.  It used to be p...

Today my trainer called me a failure. It's been 5 hours and I can't sleep. All he sees is that I've been at the gym for 2.5 months and haven't lost one pound. That's right.... Not one effing pound. On HIS nutrition plan. Which I've felt wrong about since the beginning. So I finally made an appointment to see my surgeon. He confirmed what I already felt. 1900 calories is too many. He told me to cut them down. But he also said I'm doing great and i might have to come to terms that this is the healthy place that my body wants to stay. And I should be happy with that. Easier said than done, but I'm in a MUCH better place than I was 4 years ago before surgery. Sooooo.... then I went to the gym tonight. Before class I gave my trainer a little summary of today's appointment. He was not at all happy with being told that his nutrition plan was wrong for me. Then he took it a step too far. He told me that he has 10 other weight loss surgery patients and ...

Hi Bloggers! I try to keep my motivation to blog, but it's really hard.  I hate being a negative nancy, so I want to blog happy things, but life isn't all rainbows and butterflies.  But I'm here anyway, because several weeks ago, a follower contacted me on facebook to tell me I have really inspired her and made a difference in her life.  She isn't someone who ever commented on my blog or anything like that, so you never really know who you're inspiring. I have been going to Boot Camp religiously, but the scale hasn't moved.  I'm sitting pretty on this plateau, and although it's frustrating, I'm not surprised.  My trainer has changed my eating habits and quite honestly, I'm terrified.  He has me eating 1900 calories a day and keeping my macros at 45% protein, 35% carbs, and 20% fat.  As a weight loss surgery patient, eating 1900 calories a day is SCARY.  I can't help wondering if this is why I haven't seen a change in the scale.  I hav...

Hi Weight Loss Bloggers! It's my third full week of boot camp and it was EXACTLY what I needed. I feel refreshed and renewed. My stress level is better than it has been in a long time. I feel like I am getting physically and mentally healthier every day. I really lack self-motivation to work out, so the trainer lead classes are perfect for me. In addition to the gym, I'm tracking my nutrition every day.  I am actually doing really well. The more I exercise, the more hungry I am. As a weight loss surgery patient, that is SCARY. But I recognize it is my metabolism speeding up. I also know the importance of eating enough to produce milk for my baby, so I am letting my body lead me.   Last week I was SO hungry.  I couldn't stop myself from eating.  So I ate a pack of TUNA. I DESPISE TUNA. But I figured if I was hungry enough to eat a 3rd lunch, it should be something I hate. That proves it was body hunger and not head hunger. ...