I have been so stressed. Stressed to the point that my band has tightened (in addition to the fill I got Thursday) and my mouth has a blister from stress.
I always thought it was rude to talk about money, so I try not to. I rarely discuss when I'm struggling. But I can't hold it in anymore.
I love the company I work for, I love the people, I love the idea that what I do every day is helping people. What I don't love is the fact that I think I'm under-paid. About a year ago in April, when I was doing the paperwork to close on my house, my boss mentioned getting a raise at my one year Job anniversary. That never happened, but since I don't like conflict, I didn't say anything.
I finally decided to say something a few weeks ago, when it had been exactly one year since that last promise, and now I'm coming up on my two year anniversary in my current role. The response from my boss was that I'm "irreplaceable" and she would make it right, but then the response from her boss was pretty insulting to me.
So I started looking elsewhere. A couple of weeks ago I had an interview with a prominent pharmaceutical company...honestly I thought it went terribly. They asked me to describe what a boolyean expression was and my mind just blanked, so instead of a definition I gave an example. A bad example at that. Anyway, it took 9 days but they finally emailed me and said they were very impressed with me and interested in hiring me, but the studies they were hiring for have been pushed back to July.
Fuck. I need a new job NOW.
So, I'm thinking of looking into a waitressing job until then. But do I want to waitress? No. Do I want to be around food that much? No. Do I wantt o give up my running time? NO.
I really don't know what to do right now.