Monday, May 20, 2013

Another day, Another dollar

I have been so stressed.  Stressed to the point that my band has tightened (in addition to the fill I got Thursday) and my mouth has a blister from stress.

I always thought it was rude to talk about money, so I try not to.  I rarely discuss when I'm struggling.  But I can't hold it in anymore.

I love the company I work for, I love the people, I love the idea that what I do every day is helping people.  What I don't love is the fact that I think I'm under-paid.  About a year ago in April, when I was doing the paperwork to close on  my house, my boss mentioned getting a raise at my one year Job anniversary.  That never happened, but since I don't like conflict, I didn't say anything.

I finally decided to say something a few weeks ago, when it had been exactly one year since that last promise, and now I'm coming up on my two year anniversary in my current role.  The response from my boss was that I'm "irreplaceable" and she would make it right, but then the response from her boss was pretty insulting to me.

So I started looking elsewhere.  A couple of weeks ago I had an interview with a prominent pharmaceutical company...honestly I thought it went terribly.  They asked me to describe what a boolyean expression was and my mind just blanked, so instead of a definition I gave an example.  A bad example at that.  Anyway, it took 9 days but they finally emailed me and said they were very impressed with me and interested in hiring me, but the studies they were hiring for have been pushed back to July.

July?!

Fuck.  I need a new job NOW.

So, I'm thinking of looking into a waitressing job until then.  But do I want to waitress?  No.  Do I want to be around food that much?  No.  Do I wantt o give up my running time?  NO.

UGH.

I really don't know what to do right now.

4 comments:

  1. Waitressing is hard work. I have never done it, but I would assume that you would spend most of your time on your feet and what not.
    I also work a job in the evening, and I just have to make my exercise a priority. Even if I don't want to do it, I just do it.
    And sometimes I don't get to shower and "get ready" for the next job, so I have to be prepared and take stuff with me so I presentable. I haven't had anyone complain about the stench yet, so I guess it is working out! Good luck! I hate money issues:(

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  2. I'm sorry Hollee, I can understand why that would be frustrating, discouraging and difficult. It sounds like it isn't only the money (although that is a real pressure) but feeling a lack of recognition, that is hurtful - any show of appreciation would help. I hope this search either lands you a new job you will equally love, but be better compensated and recognized for, or will stir things up where you are now, if your real wish is to stay there - and get you a deserved raise. Good for you for speaking up - I also find it so hard to do that.

    Probably everyone has already told you to network, right? Sometimes the perfect job comes from the most unusual personal connection, just by family/friends/friends of friends knowing that you are looking, and the personal recommendation they give you that gets you in the door. Some of the best jobs are never actually posted, because they want to hand pick the person they want. Obviously you interview well! :-D (And I'd have been a deer in headlights with boolyean expression, lol).

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  3. I hope things work out for you soon. I waited tables and tended bar for years, both as my primary job and a second job. It is hard work and you'd think all the walking and standing would help lose weight... not at all. Plus I think that's where my quick eating style was born since there is rarely a break to actually eat food. That has been, hands down, the habit I'm struggling with the most with this band. Good luck to you and your job hunt.

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  4. I am in law school and work full time at a veterinarian. That doesn't pay a whole lot, so I work weekend at my parents ITALIAN restaurant. Last weekend was my first weekend to work since being banded May 10th. I was really worried about, but besides the mashed potatoes my mom made me, it wasn't that bad. I actually kept thinking, "omg, how did I eat this before?" or I would see skinny people order a big calzome and think "how do they eat that and still thin?" It really wasn't as bad, and I banked close to $200 in tips. It does cut in to time, but it is better than my desk job where I sit for hours, and then I get to walk continuosly at night at the restaurant. Good luck on the job hunt! I am currently trying to get a law firm job right now!

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