It has been a long time since a child commented on my weight. I had almost forgotten the feeling. How hurtful it is, even when they don't intend for it to be.
Mr. Banker and I went to the beach for memorial day with his best friend's family, including his wonderful godsons. On the way to the beach, the oldest godson --he is 7-- rode in the car with us, and made a comment about how I was bigger than Mr. Banker. I was at a loss for words and was glad that I was wearing sunglasses so that they couldn't see me cry. I know it was not at all his intention to hurt me, but I thought I'd gotten to a point that I wouldn't have to deal with things like that anymore. At 5'9, Mr. Banker and I are the same height and I only weigh about 10-15 pounds more than him now. Mr. Banker corrected his godson and told him it wasn't nice to comment on people's weights, the conversation ended and when we got out of the car Mr. Banker had a private conversation with the little boy who came up and apologized for hurting my feelings and hugged me.
I suppose he made up for it, because although they call me "Miss Hollee" and him "Uncle Banker" (insert name in place of Banker), the older godson said something that showed he is beginning to think of me as family. I was talking to Mr. Banker's family about my nephew and the older godson interrupts and says "wait... which nephew? me or ...younger godson...?" I explained to him that I have another nephew that he'll get to meet next weekend, but it had me grinning from ear to ear.
Older godson also gave Mr. Banker a speech in the car about how if we are having a baby, we should be married and even told him how he is supposed to ask me. He was full of suggestions for baby names including "Pete, Bob, Alvin, Tom and Jerry"--we asked for boy names since we're pretty set already on a girl name.
I really do adore Mr. Banker's family. Especially the two godsons. They melt my heart every time I see them.
Yesterday morning, younger godson --he's 4-- told me he wanted to show me something, but it was upstairs. So I went upstairs with him and he stood on the bed and wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed my cheek and proceeded to tell me that was all he needed to show me. Do you guys understand why these kids have me like putty in their hands?