Hollee's Weight Loss Success Story ((in progress))

There once was a time that I needed my blog to maintain my sanity.  I blogged every day sometimes.  Now, I can hardly find time or inspiration to write. A part of it is that the weight loss stuff is great.  Am I at my goal weight? No.  Do I care? No. I'm healthy and happy and that is more important than a number on a scale or the size in my jeans.  I have energy and I think I look good anyway, what others thing shouldn't matter should it?  I feel like I'm in the realm of "normal" for the first time in my adult life.  I still qualify as 'plus size' but what does that label mean anyway? I can't promise I'll be here often, but I had something I want to put out there for any of you who are on the weight loss journey to become moms one day.  YOU CAN DO THIS WITHOUT SACRIFICING YOUR GOALS!  I'm 34 pounds lighter than I was the day I found out I was pregnant exactly one year ago this week.  I have a happy healthy baby boy and everything I...

Happy 2016! I hope you all had wonderful holidays and enjoyed all of the food and family associated with Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year and you're now getting yourselves back on track! I had an amazing holiday season with my new family and somehow managed to not gain any weight.  I didn't lose any weight either though and I'm okay with that.  I am still pretty apathetic about my weight.  I'm not at my goal weight but I feel good, healthy and I am comfortable in my skin.  What more could I ask for? Sure... I could ask to be a size 6, but how would that really make things better?  I don't really think it would.  I'm happy with my current weight and at this point, any more loss is just extra and a cherry on top! I say all of that, however I did join a DietBet again.  I was really successful last time at losing weight at winning money ($292!!!) so I thought it would be a good way to keep myself on track and keep me from gaining.  I have ...

Well... I'm quite behind.  Xavier is here!  And he is 3.5 weeks old already.  I have been so busy sleeping and feeding and changing diapers, and let's be honest, just staring at him, that I haven't written. Xavier was born on November 8, 2015 at 6:21am, 20 inches long and 7 pounds 3 oz.  He was born unexpectedly in my bed at home. Yep, that's right..... I woke up on the morning of the 7th and knew I was in labor.  I felt different and my body just knew those weren't braxton hick's contractions.  So I got up, showered, and decided I needed to go get my nails done because they were too long and would scratch my newborn baby.  I went to the nail salon while Mr. Banker was at work...he thought I was crazy. When Mr. Banker got home from work, I began timing my contractions.  When they got to one minute each and 4 minutes apart, I decided it was time to go to the hospital.  We arrived at the hospital around 6pm and I was excited to find out...

Hi everyone... Long time no write, I know I know.  So here's the deal... I have been BAD with food.  So BAD.  At my weekly OB checkup 2 weeks ago, I lost 4 pounds in 1 week and my doctor told me not to keep up that trend.  I took his order a bit seriously, and went kinda crazy the following week and found those 4 pounds plus 1.  But, I'm still under pre-pregnancy weight so I shouldn't fret I guess? I'm feeling pretty miserable.  I'm tired of being pregnant, even though my belly is still quite small considering I'm almost due.  Baby Boy has dropped significantly and there is a lot of pain/pressure in my pelvis.  Bottom line is, I am just ready to have this baby here in my arms.  I'm ready to see Mr. Banker get to hold his son for the first time.  I'm ready to not hurt anymore and not moan and groan when I have to get up off of the couch. I've had quite a few maternity shoots now.  One of my dear WLS friends introduced me t...

I've been eating my feelings today.  That's something I haven't done in a LONG LONG time. It just shows me that I am still a fat girl in my head sometimes and I have to try harder to fight it.  That's why I'm here now, blogging.  To keep me from putting another piece of food in my mouth.  I don't even know where it all fit.  Before noon I had eaten A piece of french toast Chobani flips yogurt Meat and Cheese Lunchable A small piece of Broccoli Chicken Cheddar quiche Where the hell did all that food fit?! I don't know, but it went somewhere.... I got upset today over family stuff.  Basically, I had offered a bedroom set built by my great grandfather to my aunt and uncle.  I simply don't have room for it and getting rid of it was breaking my heart, but my son needs a nursery more than I need to keep that furniture.  I wanted to keep it in the family, so I offered it to this aunt and uncle who has pretended to be supportive during my ...

The last week or so has been a complete whirlwind! Last Friday my mom came to town for our baby shower weekend and then Saturday Mr. Banker's parents arrived.  It was so amazing for them to finally meet, and it all went really well.  Of course it sucks that my father wasn't there, but I guess this is just a fact of life that I will have to come to terms with. We went to dinner with his parents, my mom, and my grandmother Saturday night and that was very nice.  We took them to Ruth's Chris and it occurred to me that I really just don't care about food that much anymore.  I didn't care what I ate or where (except that I did not want to go to this all-you-can-eat Brazilian buffet Mr. Banker suggested--for obvious reason).  That's a huge change in my life over the last 3 years that I am very thankful for.  I don't crave food and I can eat the same thing for days if I need to because it's for nourishment more than enjoyment now. Our baby shower was Sund...

Hi! Although not weight loss related, a few of you asked to see updates to my home I've been doing. In August, I began by tearing out the laminate in the kitchen and bathrooms, and tile flooring was installed. My kitchen also got a backsplash. My upstairs carpet was removed and we put back laminate hardwoods. They're so easy to clean and look beautiful!  You can see them pictured in the crib photo below. We painted our bedroom grey with a darker grey accent wall. I changed the bedding and we hung Mr Bankers picture of NY above our bed. It definitely feels more like "our" room now, and not just mine. For the nursery, we painted the room grey with a teal accent wall. It's not finished, but the baby bedding arrived yesterday and it's so beautiful that I was literally in tears. Call it hormones or whatever, but I couldn't help realizing how real this is, and that Xavier is coming soon when I saw it. Mr Banker picked the bedding and I'...