Monday, October 12, 2015

Emotional Eating

I've been eating my feelings today.  That's something I haven't done in a LONG LONG time.

It just shows me that I am still a fat girl in my head sometimes and I have to try harder to fight it.  That's why I'm here now, blogging.  To keep me from putting another piece of food in my mouth.  I don't even know where it all fit.  Before noon I had eaten

A piece of french toast

Chobani flips yogurt

Meat and Cheese Lunchable

A small piece of Broccoli Chicken Cheddar quiche

Where the hell did all that food fit?!

I don't know, but it went somewhere....

I got upset today over family stuff.  Basically, I had offered a bedroom set built by my great grandfather to my aunt and uncle.  I simply don't have room for it and getting rid of it was breaking my heart, but my son needs a nursery more than I need to keep that furniture.  I wanted to keep it in the family, so I offered it to this aunt and uncle who has pretended to be supportive during my pregnancy, but I now have a suspicion that it truly was just an act.

I offered this furniture to them over a month ago, and they still haven't come to get it.  It's been sitting in my garage for over a month waiting on them to come get it.  My water heater burst last week, flooding my garage, so I asked them to try to make a trip to get it out of the water, they told me to move it somewhere dry.  If I had anywhere dry to put it, I wouldn't be giving it away.  That's beside the point.  Anyway, they went to my father yesterday and told him I was giving it away, and also lied telling him I had gotten rid of all of my grandmother's crystal some time ago.  I gave a few pieces away 2 summers ago because I thought it was a nice thing to share with my female cousins, but I kept most of it.  Regardless, them telling my dad all of this did not help an already very unfortunate situation, I was called an ungrateful bitch, etc.  It just gets so frustrating trying to do the right thing and feeling shit on for it.

I know I was trying to do the right thing, so what anyone else thinks shouldn't matter, but it hurts my feelings.  I feel betrayed.  I feel like doing the right thing is useless.  But I know it's not.  And I know I'm still the better person.

Putting this here may only temporarily stop the emotional eating, but I'm hoping this emotional purge will help.

4 comments:

  1. Well I'm just so sorry. Shame on them for lying . Can you write your father a letter or send a picture of the bedroom set so he knows it still around? And then you have to let it go because soon that baby will be here and guess what nothing is going to matter. You're going to meet your son and your heart is going to be full again.

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  2. Well I'm just so sorry. Shame on them for lying . Can you write your father a letter or send a picture of the bedroom set so he knows it still around? And then you have to let it go because soon that baby will be here and guess what nothing is going to matter. You're going to meet your son and your heart is going to be full again.

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  3. That's a really shitty thing for your aunt and uncle to do. I know you already know this but I'm going to tell you anyway. You can't worry about these people. They are horrid for doing this to you and you know you were trying to do the right thing. That's all that matters. They can think what they want. Your dad can think what he wants. You have a baby coming that's going to bring you so much joy and that's all that matters right now.

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  4. he knows it still around? And then you have to let it go because soon that baby will be here and guess what nothing is going to matter. You're going to meet your son and your heart is going to be full again.
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