To my sweet boy

I'm so full of emotion right now, and I don't know where to put it.

The moment I first saw you, I realized I'd never known love before. As much as I thought I'd loved your father, it was nothing compared to the rush of love that came over me in the moments after your birth. I could hardly speak or move, I was so overcome by the feeling of love.

Each day that passes, that love only grows stronger. Your father and I love you immensely. Just because we couldn't love each other the way that we deserve, doesn't mean we don't each love you with every part of our being. I want you to know that you are my world.

I often feel apologetic when I look at you. I'm sorry that you won't know the love between your mother and father. I'm hopeful that one day I can show you blog posts of how deeply I fell in love with your dad and you'll know that you truly were made with the deepest love. I hope that you can forgive us for not knowing how to love one another, and believe that I did everything I could to give you the best life I could.

I love you, my son.

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