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A(nother) new start

I'm an ESFJ (Myers-Brigs assessment). My weaknesses, if you're interested: Inflexible   Reluctant to Innovate or Improvise   Often Too Needy   Too Selfless This basically explains everything that is wrong with me. And explains why I'm so averse to change.  I HATE change.  And it feels as if the only constant in my life right now is change. First, the end of my relationship with Mr. Banker. Losing my church (also a result of Mr. Banker). Now losing my gym/trainer. The good and bad news is that the owner of the gym let me out of my contract.  That's good because I really don't think I could've worked out with old trainer again after last week.  The bad news is that prior to Thursday, I really did like him as a trainer.  I'm also losing the support of all of the women at the gym.   That's hard but I think this is the best case scenario. My old trainer from 3 years ago opened her own gym.  It used to be pretty far away fr

Failure?

Today my trainer called me a failure. It's been 5 hours and I can't sleep. All he sees is that I've been at the gym for 2.5 months and haven't lost one pound. That's right.... Not one effing pound. On HIS nutrition plan. Which I've felt wrong about since the beginning. So I finally made an appointment to see my surgeon. He confirmed what I already felt. 1900 calories is too many. He told me to cut them down. But he also said I'm doing great and i might have to come to terms that this is the healthy place that my body wants to stay. And I should be happy with that. Easier said than done, but I'm in a MUCH better place than I was 4 years ago before surgery. Sooooo.... then I went to the gym tonight. Before class I gave my trainer a little summary of today's appointment. He was not at all happy with being told that his nutrition plan was wrong for me. Then he took it a step too far. He told me that he has 10 other weight loss surgery patients and